Trusting

It's about few months ago.. When my friend said to me that it's hard for me to trust someone. I just laughed at him, because he's correct. It's hard for me to trust someone, because I think if I really trust someone, someday they can betray me. I said it with a reason, the memories of the betrayal that I'm never forget. 

Life is so hard, it's really really correct. Betrayed by someone you trust is the most damaging part of your life, your heart, and your soul. It can make a trauma to someone who can't stand with it. You can get betrayed by anyone, but the most hurt part is when someone whom close to you betrayed you. You can get betrayed by your friend, your bestfriend, your love, your family, but God is the one who never betray you. That's one of my reason why I'd like to be an aloof cloud. Once I got betrayed, I gave a second chance for myself to trust someone again. But the second chance also betrayed, so since that day I really hard to trusted someone and choose to being an aloof cloud who only trust with the God...

Just like a paper, once the paper was crumpled it never can be perfect anymore, maybe you can flatter it but it never be perfect like before. Maybe you can forgive them, but I'm sure that you'll never forgot about the memories of the betrayal, it makes you lost your respect for them, and wanna think twice if you want to trust them again. Be carefull if you want to tell some secret or some of your weakness to someone, because someday they can use it for the opportunity to againts you. Trust your instinct, trust your heart, or better if you share something secret or share your weakness to your own God, not better but it's the only the best choice... Because your instinct, yoour heart and your God will never betrayed you... ;)